It is not hallow – but it is never full. Internally, it’s complicated and it’s anxious. It only knows where it has been. With little knowledge or foresight, the dense reality of yesterday loses its buoyancy, sinks, and becomes another part of the foundation that makes me who I am.
The day’s beautiful moments, the special ones, they penetrate through the foundation, and rise to furnish and animate the rooms that held an entire world, and the two people who once belonged to it. The only consciousness to claim. It is unaware, my elastic heart, of assimilation being so near.
But it is happening. Things go on outside while the body is pushed into different directions. it’s led down new hallways, introduced to old bedrooms and boyfriends. It’s thrown into mansions, and money, for shopping and fancy steaks, and museums. It wears a suit. And all of a sudden I’m proud to be. And the journey is breathe-taking, the new world that once seemed so far away is now within reach.
My heart is a ball of rubber bands that live in my chest. This elastic heart’s muscle memory is confused, frustrated and a tad amnesic. Without permission, it looks back for traces of compassion and the comforts it once knew. I can feel it solidifying, the piece of me that was once there, thriving and vibrant, now concentrated, bottled up and stored away, to slowly petrify within and turn to stone. Then it becomes heavier. And heavier still.
No amount of corrective behavior or conditioning can prepare a heart distended. Allowing it to flourish, grow and mature will cause permanent change.
It is not hallow but it is never full. Internally, it’s complicated and it’s anxious. It only knows where it has already been. With little knowledge or foresight, the dense reality of yesterday loses its buoyancy, sinks, and becomes another part of a foundation that makes me who I am. The beautiful moments will rise to furnish and repurpose the space that once held an entire reality – an entire person; it’s only claim to consciousness. It is unaware, my elastic heart.
I just installed the June 8th beta release of iOS 9 on my iPhones 5s, and I love what they’ve done with Notes. Everything is categorized by how you have created them.
iOS 9 Notes
No more am I constantly checking and double checking if I’ve created a note under the “iCloud” or “Gmail” outlet — It now does it for me! You can also add distinguishable titles, pictures and little doodles (Much the same way you can on your NSFW Snapchats).
Another feature that caught my eye is “Low Power Mode.” You can turn Lower Power Mode on manually. It reduces performance and networking activity to extend battery life. When it’s toggled on, Mail Fetch, Background App Refresh, motion effects and animated wallpapers are disabled.
iOS 9 Low Power Mode
This one swipe option is so much EASIER than having to go through each of those menu options individually when you’re trying to save juice.
Anyway, that’s all for now. More impressions to come soon!