I wonder if he has ever lied to me.
My heart is a ball of rubber bands that live in my chest. This elastic heart’s muscle memory is confused, frustrated and a tad amnesic. Without permission, it looks back for traces of compassion and the comforts it once knew. I can feel it solidifying, the piece of me that was once there, thriving and vibrant, now concentrated, bottled up and stored away, to slowly petrify within and turn to stone. Then it becomes heavier. And heavier still.
No amount of corrective behavior or conditioning can prepare a heart distended. Allowing it to flourish, grow and mature will cause permanent change.
It is not hallow but it is never full. Internally, it’s complicated and it’s anxious. It only knows where it has already been. With little knowledge or foresight, the dense reality of yesterday loses its buoyancy, sinks, and becomes another part of a foundation that makes me who I am. The beautiful moments will rise to furnish and repurpose the space that once held an entire reality – an entire person; it’s only claim to consciousness. It is unaware, my elastic heart.
I just installed the June 8th beta release of iOS 9 on my iPhones 5s, and I love what they’ve done with Notes. Everything is categorized by how you have created them.No more am I constantly checking and double checking if I’ve created a note under the “iCloud” or “Gmail” outlet — It now does it for me! You can also add distinguishable titles, pictures and little doodles (Much the same way you can on your NSFW Snapchats).
Another feature that caught my eye is “Low Power Mode.” You can turn Lower Power Mode on manually. It reduces performance and networking activity to extend battery life. When it’s toggled on, Mail Fetch, Background App Refresh, motion effects and animated wallpapers are disabled.
This one swipe option is so much EASIER than having to go through each of those menu options individually when you’re trying to save juice.
Anyway, that’s all for now. More impressions to come soon!
I was recently asked to shoot at Neo, a dance club in Lincoln Park. I don’t have a camera at the moment, but a friend of mine let me use his Canon EOS 5D. Unfortunately, there was no flash. The venue is extremely dark inside, and capturing acceptable photos in such low light conditions was a challenge, to say the least.
Without further bitching, here they are.
I think it’s worth mentioning that with the release of Adobe Lightroom CC (2015) and the HDR Merge feature, the finished album may have been able to include more of the photos from the dark interior of Neo.